Video - Filtered away from Beatty and O'Brien

[buywithme]

Comrades!

[Pause]

I mean, post-graduate Comrades... or... long term resident institutionalized Comrades, or really just anyone who thinks this makes sense to them. Do you ever feel like... I mean, did anyone else start out disliking it here and thinking that it was entirely wrong, then eventually came around to thinking that even though they weren't happy here, maybe what was happening and what the wardens were doing was something that needed to happen, and then eventually, if you started to think that it was entirely right, what was happening here, did thinking that you were doing the right thing by being here make you begin to like it?

[That probably didn't make sense, did it? Let's try again.]

I mean, what I meant to say was that... [Fffff, let's try for some context on why he's worrying here:]

Back home in the Factory I didn't really have friends. Or books, or alcohol, or hobbies, or free will. And I didn't technically get paid for my work, and everything I did was evil, but I was happy and I felt fulfilled because I believed that what I was doing was right. So, I guess what I'm saying, Comrades, is that it has come to my attention that I have a tendency to look for validation through my work and that I'm afraid I might have accidentally slipped into being blindly subservient to the Admiral because that is exactly the kind of thing that I could imagine myself doing.

I mean, it could be that I actually like it here and that I really do think that being a warden is a good thing, I'm not sure how you're supposed to tell the difference in these circumstances, Comrades.

[Private to O'Brien]

Comrade, did you know you can put alcohol in coffee?

Comments

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[gotgreenmagic.livejournal.com]

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Comrade, I'm not a shrink, but if you're worrying about the fact you might have Stockholm syndrome then you probably don't?

[impure-tale.livejournal.com]

Simple means to tell the difference: Can you answer why? and are you willing to?

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[needshumility.livejournal.com]

It makes sense to me, um, comrade? (am I supposed to call you that? Is that what we do?)

Not in the sense that I've graduated.

But at home. I realised the Collective was wrong, it was just doing things for it's own purposes, and trying to make itself exist in perpetuity THAT was Jane's word.. I'd believed for so much of my life that the Rules were something good. Then I found out the truth - I don't think I'd done anything 'evil' in it's name, but I could have ended up doing so. In fact, I might have ended up doing it anyway, actually.

And now, here, I'm so wary of my own authority. I know what's wrong in authority, but don't know what's right. I'm scared every decision I make is going to make me just like the Prefects at home. Which isn't a good forebearing for being one of those Prefects myself.

So... I understand, in a way.

I also have no idea why I told you that.

[Private]

[cisskabob]

Prefect? Are you okay?

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[equalsfive.livejournal.com]

I... can't see how this is a particularly radical discovery, comrade.

But it sounds like a good plan.

[subtlescience]

"Bat Facts" made more sense than this.

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[inhumandog.livejournal.com]

You're thinking too much about this.

[19centconstable.livejournal.com]

...You worked in an Evil factory?

Non-Beatty/O'Brien:

[vampish_aleera]

I think there are better ways this place could achieve its ways... But it changed my thinking, yes.

Is this what you were meaning?

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[most_feared]

Short answer? I think what we're doing is right. I think what the Admiral does is wrong.

My philosophy is if you don't like how a system works, you still function within it and do the right thing.

Private.

[yourunichase]

Do you find yourself agreeing with everything the Admiral does and every asshole that he puts here?

[darknessb4me]

You can't change what you are.

If you need to fit into a system and take all your validation from upholding it because that's how you've been put together, then you do. The Barge doesn't teach wild dogs how not to be dogs, it just trains them.

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[truth_is_cold]

Someone need not be blindly subservient to discover that where they thought they were right, they were actually wrong. [And at the moment he just wants to kill it all.]

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[sharpememory.livejournal.com]

I hate to say it, but do you think taking away my powers was part of being subservient to the Admiral?