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buywithmeComrades!
[Pause]
I mean, post-graduate Comrades... or... long term resident institutionalized Comrades, or really just anyone who thinks this makes sense to them. Do you ever feel like... I mean, did anyone else start out disliking it here and thinking that it was entirely wrong, then eventually came around to thinking that even though they weren't happy here, maybe what was happening and what the wardens were doing was something that needed to happen, and then eventually, if you started to think that it was entirely right, what was happening here, did thinking that you were doing the right thing by being here make you begin to like it?
[That probably didn't make sense, did it? Let's try again.]
I mean, what I meant to say was that... [Fffff, let's try for some context on why he's worrying here:]
Back home in the Factory I didn't really have friends. Or books, or alcohol, or hobbies, or free will. And I didn't technically get paid for my work, and everything I did was evil, but I was happy and I felt fulfilled because I believed that what I was doing was right. So, I guess what I'm saying, Comrades, is that it has come to my attention that I have a tendency to look for validation through my work and that I'm afraid I might have accidentally slipped into being blindly subservient to the Admiral because that is exactly the kind of thing that I could imagine myself doing.
I mean, it could be that I actually like it here and that I really do think that being a warden is a good thing, I'm not sure how you're supposed to tell the difference in these circumstances, Comrades.
[Private to O'Brien]
Comrade, did you know you can put alcohol in coffee?
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I mean, post-graduate Comrades... or... long term resident institutionalized Comrades, or really just anyone who thinks this makes sense to them. Do you ever feel like... I mean, did anyone else start out disliking it here and thinking that it was entirely wrong, then eventually came around to thinking that even though they weren't happy here, maybe what was happening and what the wardens were doing was something that needed to happen, and then eventually, if you started to think that it was entirely right, what was happening here, did thinking that you were doing the right thing by being here make you begin to like it?
[That probably didn't make sense, did it? Let's try again.]
I mean, what I meant to say was that... [Fffff, let's try for some context on why he's worrying here:]
Back home in the Factory I didn't really have friends. Or books, or alcohol, or hobbies, or free will. And I didn't technically get paid for my work, and everything I did was evil, but I was happy and I felt fulfilled because I believed that what I was doing was right. So, I guess what I'm saying, Comrades, is that it has come to my attention that I have a tendency to look for validation through my work and that I'm afraid I might have accidentally slipped into being blindly subservient to the Admiral because that is exactly the kind of thing that I could imagine myself doing.
I mean, it could be that I actually like it here and that I really do think that being a warden is a good thing, I'm not sure how you're supposed to tell the difference in these circumstances, Comrades.
[Private to O'Brien]
Comrade, did you know you can put alcohol in coffee?
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[Private]
Date: 2011-07-05 01:45 am (UTC)[Pause]
[Longest, longest pause.]
Because I don't want to leave. Please don't tell anyone, I know it's not a good reason to be a warden, Sister.
[Private]
Date: 2011-07-05 03:01 am (UTC)[Have a pause in return]
I won't tell. If you won't tell that I stay for the same reason. That, and I know I'm the only person who can stand up for Isaac, and I know he has the same kind of abandonment issues I have, so leaving would hurt him. But I've had five inmates altogether, gone for long stretches without an inmate, and had plenty of times when I could have left. But I don't want to. Do you have a deal with the Admiral?
Re: [Private]
Date: 2011-07-07 12:44 am (UTC)[Man, way to make him feel better about his shitty wardening! You're a good friend, Cissie :c]
I don't have one. Do you?
Re: [Private]
Date: 2011-07-08 01:40 am (UTC)Well, maybe you could start researching your facts in the library? But I liked your Bat Facts, so I wouldn't worry too much. ...Maybe double-check Beatty's before you believe them, though.
No, I don't. I can't say for sure that I won't someday, but I've never had one.