It's not proportionate, I know it. But I'm supposed to be level, Prefect. I've been able to keep working at my purpose and set my feelings aside for decades, and now--
I can't. I haven't been able to get myself less angry unless I set aside all of it, and then I feel the loss of it too hard. I never had so much to lose, before, shutting down and operating strictly by protocol.
I don't know how to go about it. None of it makes sense and I know it's not as bad as I'm taking it, but that doesn't... stop it.
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Date: 2012-05-28 12:08 am (UTC)I can't. I haven't been able to get myself less angry unless I set aside all of it, and then I feel the loss of it too hard. I never had so much to lose, before, shutting down and operating strictly by protocol.
I don't know how to go about it. None of it makes sense and I know it's not as bad as I'm taking it, but that doesn't... stop it.